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Saturday, November 24, 2007

7:49 AM

sunburnt.shunks
muscle aches.double shunks.
i think my dslr lens is wierd.there's this mark which i just cannot seem to get rid off somehow.ok then again maybe that's cause i just dont quite dare to touch the lens in fear of breaking it.owells i cant believe i did not touch any alcohol this entire week.(pets self on back).it's a miracle.public speaking impromptu speech was a success.i did not stumble as much as i thought i would.tennis this morning was beyond awesome.though i still find it so cute that this guy came up to me this afternoon and was all like "eh i realised you smoke here very often.if i were to give you one free tennis coaching session will you promise me that you'll quit?"adorable.i am in fact trying to cut down somehow.though i dont really think it's working much.this is upsetting.i am highly broke this month.but at least the month's going to end soon.geeesh.i actually cant wait for christmas right now.if only now was last year.where i can actually kick back in london shopping and skiing again.how that would just be bliss wouldnt it ;)

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Wednesday, November 21, 2007

8:38 AM

i think i should start being more realistic in life.stop dreamin jessica.you have to stop.seriously.my past week has been wierd.i think i spend more time thinking and daydreaming about random things that dont even matter.owells.i think i am starting to hallucinate at times now.just like last night it seemed as though suddenly a heap of dark green tree vines just swamped over and wrapped themselves around me.i swear i saw it.but when i turned on the lights there was nothing there.what's wrong with my imagination.i think it is running too wild.enough of that.i somehow am just feeling completely ravenous lately though my life is currently made out of 30% sleep,20% food,10% alcohol,10% smokes and 30% just wasting my life away.i think i really need to wake up like NOW and actually look at things in a more physical manner and snap out of this "reality" which i am currently in.ok i think im in great need for more smokes now.shit.ahhhh why the hell's my body experiencing such degradation.why why WHY?!?

spiderman monopoly was great fun.lets do it again!

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Sunday, November 18, 2007

7:59 AM

after this past week i have come to realise that everything should indeed be done in moderation.note to self: no more consequetive drinking with smokes.else my throat is going to be ten times worse than what it already is.owells went for a major minor thing last night.efffing good.both bands were good in fact.joanne's husband and the indie kinda guy.yes support local talent.am just so glad that i managed to catch up with a whole bunch of people whom i havent seen in such a long time.bumped into a number whom i so did not wish to see though but owells.lets not spoil my current mood.anyway i just realised that i am starting to get REALLY into indie music.ok i had always been but ive only just realised it.owells pump room and mos last night.finally!havent clubbed in like EONS.though i must say i felt highly awkward as i was just in a polo tee with jeans,super short heels with ZERO makeup on and specs.yes the one word of vainity.im so sick of school and my throat really hurts now.who wanna come with for my chemical romance?!any takers?please (:

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

6:53 AM

what can i say.i HATE being sick.come every year end during the monsoon period why the hell must i always be down with this stupid cold which never goes away.so much so that panadols are currently my best friends.owells.

am somehow counting down the days to my next school holidays.strangely this school semester seems a little different from the last.peer wise it's kind of better but drama wise it is still there in a more warpped up way can i say?i think i am getting way to paranoid about things lately.i know i often tend to over analyze things before judging them.i mean even my teachers say so but i dont know.i just have this wierd funny feeling that something bad is going to happen if the advise is not taken.i can just feel it deep within me.

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Monday, November 12, 2007

7:35 AM

why doctors are so sexily cool
when asked what exactly are hiccups their natural response would be:

it accomapanies diaphragmatic pleurisy, pneumonia, uremia, or alcoholism. Abdominal causes include disorders of the stomach, and esophagus, bowel diseases, pancreatitis, pregnancy, bladder irritation, hepatic metastases, or hepatitis. Thoracic and mediastinal lesions or surgery may be responsible. Posterior fossa tumours or infarcts may stimulate centers in the medulla oblongata.

After hearing that arent hiccups like the coolest thing ever.HAHAHAHA.talk about something REALLY complicated.

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Wednesday, November 07, 2007

9:53 PM

my head is in space.i'm a walking zombie.with an average of 25hours of sleep every week minus the weekends i think i am so going to die soon.seriously.i realised that i really do not have much discipline.it takes so much effort for me to actually get things done nowadays.especially that stupid mm prin subject.i wonder why do i procrastinate that much.some of my friends mentioned that i now tend to over analyze things.they claim it's freaky and that i have changed so much.funny how i had always thought it was not me just them.or is it really me indeed?i cannot get over what happened that night.that night of sheer fun and excitement.so much so that i now question myself.i do not want history to ever repeat itself again.though i never seem to learn from my mistakes.isnt it once bitten twice shy?why doesnt that ever come true when it comes to me?i dont want to be that fool no more.

back to my week.scruffy murphy's on friday with the best friends and chitty chitty bang bang with rina darling on sunday.really awesome show that would not fail to bring out that kid in you.crazy elephant and lunar on tuesday and moliere last night.i guess i am just so grateful for the public holiday today.even though i think i am programmed to wake up even before i get 8 hours of sleep.

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;